2014
Completed first year of advanced education in 5 years.Finally bothered to do something after being lazy for 5 years.
Every assessment and exam passed with zero referrals.
Didn't get all assessments to A+ grade.
1st year in University finished with 9 'A' grades, 3 'B' grades & '2' C grades.
Didn't achieve full marks for first year of degree.
Qualified Gym Instructor.
Playing catch-up. Should have done it ages ago.
Qualified Sports Massage Therapist.
Playing catch-up. Should have done it ages ago.
Attended and provided Sports Massage at the London Marathon.
Did the same thing that everyone else does on the course, nothing special. Doesn't matter.
Initiated first role as pitch side first aider/therapist.
No choice but to do it, when I doubt I'll be any good at it. Incapable?
Attended end of year party, (didn't bail on wearing the dress)
Shouldn't matter anyway, over-analytical, over-caring. (doesn't look good, so what?)
Passed driving test, first time.
6 minors, not perfect. Not good enough.
Accepted invitation to a Christmas party for the first time (looked good in a dress)
Shouldn't go, will bring it down and ruin it for everyone. (so what?)
Size 10 -> Size 8
Vain
Became committed.
Became focused.
Became strong.
Boring.
Obsessed.
'Gym-rat'.
Returned to therapy.
Opened up.
Self Reconstruction.
Clearly didn't bother enough first time.
Bothering people with self-indulgent attention seeking.
Deconstruction.
Not a bad year that, huh?
Some bullshit, ey?
"This year has felt so long, I forget what's happened. I wouldn't say I've achieved a lot actually" Funny thing, attached to this was going to be some pretentious, edifying, self-indulgent, encouraging babble, but is there a pressing need? Really?
Probably not, actually.
Do green. Think in red.
Do in light. Think in vitriol.
The list could be longer. The more I think about it, the longer it gets. Fitting, really, that takes us to here:
2015
Stopped giving a shit.
Kicked ass.
Do in green.
Think in green.
I'm not on board with waiting until a 'new year' to make a 'new you', and the truth is, personally, it's been a process of years, all told.
But, if you're going to set down a marker, what better time is there than now?
And, funnily enough, it just happens to be a new year.
So why? why not?
What's your green?
Happy New Year.
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